We all have events in our lives that become important milestones during our journey. Many of these events are a result of our actions and we have plenty of control over them: a wedding, a divorce, a graduation, a promotion, and to a certain degree, the birth of a child. They become our personal reference points, as in “before my promotion…”, or “after I became a mother…”
Other events are caused by external factors. We don’t really have control over them from happening or not, but we can control somehow the effect that they have on our lives. War or a natural disaster is an example. The death of a loved one is another.
July 11, 1995 is one of my milestone dates. It is when Little Johnny was officially pronounced death.
It is the day I lost my father; and it is also the day I lost a substantial degree of trust in others. Especially when it comes to trusting other people with that which is very important to me, as would be the life of someone I love.
Looking back, I now realize that on that sad day I also lost other things: the opportunity of seeing my father as a grandfather to my daughter, nephew and niece; and what I am sure would have been the best piece of advice I could possibly receive on some of the most challenging moments I have experienced in the last 14 years.
Wherever you are Little Johnny I miss you.
I always will.
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